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Thursday, January 1, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!It's 1 January 2009 today.
It's the time of the year where almost everyone has their resolution list for 2009 done up.
Well, it's also time to start living and fulfilling the items on that list! And I shall try my very best to fufill each and every item I have listed on my resolution list 2009.
Here goes mine!
Janel Ku's Resolution List for 2009
1. Lose enough weight to wear a size 'S'!
2. Get braces
3. Sign up to take on a degree course
4. Live each day happily
5. Learn how to be more appreciative of things and people around me
6. Do more exercise
7. Spend less on buying unneccessary items
8. Be nicer to those whom I cherish
9. Take up a new hobby
10. Stop being so lazy
11. Live a stress free life!
12. Build up my self-confidence
Hope everyone will live a fufilling and happy year 2009!
Last night, while having dinner, I was thinking this, "Why should I be happy about year 2009? What's so great about another new year when I'm stuck in the same job I hate, the same boss who criticises me all the time, stuck with the same figure, stuck with being the same depressed self? What's so happy about welcoming another year like that?"
Then my dad suddenly told us this. He said, "Today is the last day of Year 2008, and we're sitting down together, having dinner. We must learn to be grateful for what we have."
It was as though he knew what I was thinking. Though those words do not seem like it was any consolation to anyone, well, it was to me. His words enlightened me.
'Don't be sad or angry thinking that you're stuck in the same job. Be grateful because you still have a job in these times.'
'Don't be sad or angry because you're not slim but flabby. Be grateful because you still have chances to change your figure into something better.'
'Don't be depressed, sad or angry because you're still clinging on what has hurt you. Be grateful because you still have memories of what happened. Be grateful that you've learnt some lessons through the hurt.'
These were some of the sudden thoughts that rushed to me after he had said those words. Learning to be grateful for everything you have, or everything that's happened to you. There's got to be something worth learning from those things we go through, good or bad.
Why did I keep clinging on to something that hurt me so bad, and letting the other good things that happen slip pass me? Why couldn't I see the good things happening, and only the bad? Did I just want to prove to myself that I'm only a person not worth living? Did I push myself into depression? Was I the one who made myself feel so bad all the time?
Well, I guess. But I'm trying hard not to do that anymore. This is a whole new beginning for me. I want to become a whole new person, a better person. I want to love myself more. Looking back, I don't love myself at all. I only wanted to become someone who wanted to be loved by others but even I didn't cherish who I was, so how could I expect that others would?
I will try my best to make myself a happier person. This is a fresh start for me. I will start living my dreams. Do what makes me happy, after all, I'm only 21! I should start living and stop hiding myself away. Make new friends, learn new things, experience new things, learn to bring my determination and energy up to another level. I can do this! I must learn to do this!
This is the hope that the year 2009 gives me. I want to be able to look back and tell myself that I truly lived, and not only to look back to find that I was always in tears. Let's all be able to learn to be a better person, not only to others but to ourselves, all in year 2009.
The new year of hope, joy, love and dreams!
=)
Happy New Year!!!!!
xoxo Jank