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Now, guidelines.
Read. my scribbles.
Feel. my emotions.
Smile. for me.
Dance. in joy.
Comment. in my favour.
And if you don't already know,
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Friday, April 24, 2009
Today I was reading through the magazine when I saw this article about fat admiration. I did not know that there were so many people (including ASIANS!) who are fat admirers. A SSBBW (Super Sized Big Beautiful Woman) who was being interviewed and she mentioned that she had over 300 - 500 fans! All men! Whoa.How come no one likes me? haha. I guess i'm like, no where here and no where there. But I still wanna aim towards the slim side though.
Is this a confidence problem? haha. I think so.
Anyways, follow this link to check out Fat Admiration:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fat_admirer
Today I also had dinner with Doreen at Thai Express Bistro (Tampines 1). Think they kinda added a little more salt for their chicken broth soup today. Kinda salty. Or issit just me? haha. Recently I've been eating so little but I get bloated (seriously, to the extent I wanna puke) so easily. Eating disorder? Didn't think so. Still don't think so.
But why the sudden change in digestion speed or something? I dont know. But i'm still not used to this bloated thingy so I'm kinda always... 'overeating'. Then I'll regret that I took that extra tablespoon of rice that led to me feeling sick throughout a few hours.
ARGH! What is wrong with me? Sian.
xoxo Jank
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I miss Johnmin.It has already been more than 3 months since we spoke. No calls, no smses... Ever since I told him that i was disappointed with him. I wonder if I really matter to him. Does not even seem so. I remember the last time I tried confiding in him was when I felt really really upset over somethings that happened in the office. But he told me that I should feel better because he is much worse off than me, and that I should be happy. Those words cut me deep.
Everytime I put up the phone to sms him, I hestitate... I just cannot believe he just didn't even sms me. Why should I always be the one to contact him? Why should I always be the one to organise a meeting on his behalf when he wants to meet up with the others?
I'm really sorry for myself. Sorry that I cannot cut off relationships so easily. Hurt, but I still think of him.
How is he doing?
Is he getting along well with his girlfriend?
6 years of friendship... will it end just like this? Should it?
Still...
I miss this friend of mine.
xoxo Jank
周華健 - 朋友 (Friends)