House Rules.
First and Foremost, Welcome.
Now, guidelines.
Read. my scribbles.
Feel. my emotions.
Smile. for me.
Dance. in joy.
Comment. in my favour.
And if you don't already know,
Slip. on my banana peels. =P
Monday, November 24, 2008
I was just watching an old HK drama 美味天王 (SCV Channel 255, 8.20pm, Mon-Fri), so funny! Hahaha. 看到了肥姐 (Lydia Sum) 和戏中老公的感人 dancing scene, 我的眼睛也充满了泪水. The dialogue in the touching scene goes something like this:肥姐：如果你今天的舞伴不是我，你一定能够赢将的…
戏中老公：不要这样说… 做人最重要是要有自信。我不会放弃你，你也不会放弃我的，对吗？
肥姐：噢。*眼睛充满泪水*
This moment, we see 肥姐 so touched because she finally had found someone who really appreciated her for who she really was, despite her size (the touching scene was played when she was reminiscing about her past with her 戏中老公). I was really touched too! How I wish I could find someone who would appreciate me too! Like, not because of the way I look, but appreciate me for… me.
All the talk about having babies and getting married now, yes, it’s really much easier when you’re like, Fiona Xie’s size and have a firm wall of confidence that does not break as soon as someone calls you a fatty or an upsize from a regular girl, you know. Are guys really that superficial? (Guys I know have once told me the below.)
"My girlfriend must have nice boobies." (… what’s new?)
"My girlfriend must have Jolin Tsai’s kind of face." (Her kind of face really is ideal face meh?)
"My girlfriend must be hot! Hmmm... I think Fiona Xie type can lor." (Of course can la, you superficial bustard.)
"I like my women with a nice ass." (Define nice. -_-)
Or maybe all the guys I meet just happen to think like that. Think I should consider changing all of my guy friends and just look for new ones. Well, I’ve met nice ones also. But they are attached and some have problems maintaining the relationship just because their girlfriend doesn’t want to have sex with them. But that’s just another problem altogether.
How come I just never get to meet nice guys one? Like, cute ones who talk well… fug, I’m superficial too! haha. Damn. Actually my social circle is considered damn small, to be fair, can? I just never meet enough people and I can’t say I know new friends like, every month. More like my life is pretty routine – Eat, work, eat, work, eat, sleep – goes on every single weekday. And during the weekends, I just … pig out at home. You know, eat, watch TV, eat, sleep, eat, watch TV, sleep. And I would have whiled the whole damn weekend away without even having fun! That’s how I get those Monday blues. Shiit. It’s like I know how I get all moody and stuff and I’m just striving to make my days even worse. Already friend circle small, then work until the face all haggard, eyebags all popping out, keep on snacking at work to keep the stress away… now when I look back, "For what?" I think to myself. I only just turned 21 and yet I’m living the life of a 42 year old wrinkled pig. It’s like I always need rest, not a single moment is spent without whining about how mentally exhausted I am.
Lame-O. Now I’m just part of the lazy cycle and just can’t pull myself out of it. Shit.
My new year resolution should look more or less something like this:
1. Get out of the lazy cycle.
2. Exercise.
3. Stop eating carbs.
4. Exercise.
5. Buy smaller clothes which you only can wear after losing 10 kilos.
6. Stop eating carbs.
7. Read more.
8. Don’t fuss too much over work. (then I’ll have less stress, and I’ll stop snacking, see!)
9. Make more (boy)friends.
10. Go pubs more often and wink at cute guys.
11. Learn the ways of seduction and flirting.
12. Find my life’s "戏中老公" just like 美味天王 (above).
That’s all I can think of for now. Women of Singapore (especially the average looking Chinese women), we should all equip ourselves with a skill of seduction and flirting (also, consider a low cut dress.)! If not, we will never snag a man in Singapore!
So difficult you know, especially when the ratio of guys to women in Singapore are like, 1:3? No?
GAAAAHHH!
Good luck girls! Go read up on articles relating to snagging a man (a cute one!) and share it with me!
What I’m Feeling right now (Love love me, love love me!):
Mika – Love Today
xoxo Jank
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Oh my... Just finished writing an article for my company's newsletter. GAH! So tiring. It's the weekend and still have to use up brain cells for work.Conversation running through my mind:
Brain: "I NEED A BREAK! I NEED A BREAK!"
Body: "Ok, ok. Fine. We go lie down now."
Brain: "Not enough!"
Body: "Then what you want me to do? Eat?"
Brain: "But you're farking fat. Like, obese already."
Body: "Oooo-kay.. And anyway all food centres are mostly closed by now. Sunday night what. Unless you want Macdonalds?"
Brain: "OH... NOOOOO~! TOMORROW'S... MONDAY."
Body: "How about Macdonalds? There's delivery service."
Brain: "..."
Body: "6777 3777?"
Brain: "When are you signing up for liposuction?"
Body: "Let's just go lie down."
Brain: "-_-. I hate waking up early in the morning."
Body: "... ... ...How about some Sinus tomorrow? We'll snag that MC."
*SILENCE*
... I have this weird dispute going on in my head everyweekday night and on Sunday nights.
What the hell.
What I'm feeling now (Turn up your speakers!):
Akon - Tired of Running
On another note: It was my sister's 18th birthday yesterday! Happy I bought her a Bonia Purse/Clutch! See the birthday pictures at my Flickr . ^^
18th Birthday, Joanne! I love you. =)
xoxo Jank
Friday, November 21, 2008
"Haavoittunut Enkeli."That's the finnish name of my blog and also one of the names of Finland's National Painting, "The Wounded Angel".
"The Wounded Angel" Painting
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An extraction of text from Wikipedia:
"Like other Simberg paintings, The Wounded Angel evokes a serious, even gloomy atmosphere. The central figure of the angel has a bandage around her eyes and traces of blood on her wing. The two young bearers are dressed in somber colours, as if in mourning, and the one in the right stares directly out of the painting at the viewer with a serious expression, only made more so by the youth of the two boys."
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Not only is this voted as one of Finland's best paintings, this is also a painting which I can connect with. Hence, the name of my blog.
What the painting symbolizes to me:
First, I must establish what an 'Angel' represents to me (or likely, to many). Angels symbolize goodness, purity, protection, comfort and consolation. Angels are superior to us in intelligence and spirituality.
Yet, in the painting, it depicts a wounded angel being carried by mere mortals.
I feel the helplessness of a powerful being, a powerful person fallen from grace. And yet, the ones who reached out to offer help, encouragement and care are those who are lowly, less superior.
Though we are not more superior than one another, but when we are hurt (emotionally or physically), it is indisputable that with the help, encouragement and care of others may we slowly pick ourselves up. EVERYBODY needs help one time or another.
The past few years have been a huge roller coaster ride for me when I was trying to pick myself up, I was hurt badly. Emotionally. But I realise no matter how much pain you'll feel, time slowly heals the wound. Also, credit goes to the people who have been by my side, cheering me along the way and also offering their assistance, care and concern, words of encouragement, that has really helped me get on my feet faster.
To put it simply, this painting constantly reminds me always that the infallible may indeed fall and even they need help from others some time in their lives.
And, hence my blog name! Ta-dah!
But of course, the meaning of the painting may be interpreted differently by everyone. But this is mostly what it means to me, and is already serving me with a wonderful lesson and reminder of my past self. So dig it.
P.S. I had intially wanted to name it: Haavoittunut-Enkeli.blogspot.com, buuuut I think it's a handful to remember for most people. So, there you go! =)
I'm feeling like (Turn up your speakers!):
Mika - Grace Kelly
xoxo Jank